u got it all wrong... taking stuff away after my exams wont do any good. what the hell are u trying to do. i really dont know. u want me to study? i am putting my 110% in it and doing it. what else do u want? prelims is over alr, taking something away from me after my Os is really nonsensical. prelims are meant to fail one lar. i also noe i was going to do badly... but do u ever listen to me...? no... do u ever think about what i say?? noo..... do you ever think that maybe what i say might be right? nooo.... do you ever stop thinking about how much money u spent? u wanted me, so stop complaning. i mean, if u wanna do smth, dun do it and regret later. im putting in effort now. but if u take it away just like that, then, i might as well dont put in any effort wat, cos even if i do, i also wont get it. so, whats the point. u just wan me to start thinking like that is it. huh? u think just by taking things away from me, its gonna solve all the problems? ure really wrong. cos u've done it so much, im so numb towards it... u can take everything, i'll still be the same old me... u really just cant change me just by taking stuff away from me... i think its inmature anyhows.. and seriously, ure supposed to keep encouraging me, reward me with things after Os... not take things away, just cos i didnt do well for my prelims... like, hello? its prelims! i am studying for Os, not prelims, why is everyone okay with that except u? and its over anyway, wat can i possibly do? prelims is not even gonna affect me in anyway... i just gotta learn where i went wrong and work on it. so why the big fuss... and stop making rash reactions... and, the money is submitted alr, so u cant take it back. and, there really wont be any diff if i go or not, cos ure still gonna loose money even if i dont go. so whats the point, just let me go lar. and u nv said what u claimed what u said okay. dont put words suddenly... i can rmb what u said, and non of them seemed to be that. okay, so, jus stop it, and money aint everything... stop controlling me with money... think about it... what do I feel? do u even trust me that i study? i guess not... just accept me for hu i am... and trust me... and stop talking about ur money wasted on me... i was just being truthful, too bad if u get hurt by it, its the truth okay. and i say wat i said, nth more... so dont infer, cos its wrong...
i really really wanna go... its not as though like, im not studying like that. really, even if u take it away after my Os, what are u trying to prove anyway?
CHOCOLATE ;;
11:07 PM <3